It’s my birthday today. It’s part of my personal birthday ritual to find a quiet place to meditate and look back at the year and align with what’s next for my upcoming year.
This past year has been a real butt-kicker. I’ve had a suicidal child (who is doing very well now, THANK GOD!), one of my children was in a serious car accident, my parents are aging, my business has been in a foundation-laying cycle that has taken an enormous amount of effort and, frankly, I’ve been battling some pretty serious burnout.
It’s also been a year of really clarifying what’s important in my life and clearing away the things that are hampering me from gaining traction on the fulfillment of my full potential.
I am grateful for all that I’ve learned and for my renewed clarity and momentum.
This past week, my husband, my youngest daughter and I drove from Minneapolis to Georgia and back to put my youngest son, a newly graduated Army Infantryman, on a bus to the Atlanta airport where he caught a plane to his new Duty Station almost half-way across the world.
On our way home we stopped at Cahokia Mounds State Historic Site. Cahokia Mounds is the site of a pre-Columbian Native American city directly across the Mississippi River from modern St. Louis, Missouri.
I felt called to stop there and climb the biggest mound, called Monks Mound, and meditate.
It was a short meditation as my 10-year-old was not particularly excited to climb a large flight of stairs in the heat after sitting in the car for days…
I climbed the top of the pyramid with the intention to tune into whatever messages the Universe has for me to help me with this upcoming new birth year.
The view from the top was strange, an ancient mount built by a civilization that was long gone, surrounded by modern cranes, construction and a view of the St. Louis Arch. I tried to imagine what it might have been like thousands of years ago.
As I surveyed the land and the life around me, I kept hearing one short, but clear phrase:
Your mission this year is to span the gap.
Span. The. Gap.
As somewhat cryptic as this message is, I know exactly what it means.
When we span the gap, we are closing the distance between things, building a bridge, gathering things together…
Spanning the gap means having faith that you can leap from where you are now to where you are wanting to go.
We start off in life with ample faith. Ask any four-year-old who spontaneously decides they want Santa to bring them a hamster at 9 pm on Christmas Eve…They have faith that Santa’s got their request handled.
Our natural faith is quickly un-learned as we are conditioned by a society that values logic over faith. If you can’t demonstrate “how” you’re going to create something or “prove” that an intention is “possible”, you run the risk of being ridiculed or even shamed for being a “dreamer” – a word that has somehow become an insult in the logic-driven world.
Yet, without a dream, we have no destination on the map of our lives.
Dreamers took us to the moon, initiated us into creating equitable laws and created the lightbulb and ways to harness electricity.
To bring a dream into reality, we have to train ourselves to relearn how to use our faith.
Faith is truly like a muscle. You have to practice using faith to strengthen your ability to rely on it as a vital tool in the creative process.
Here’s the deal.
It’s easy to have faith in something that you can probably create with your own will.
For example, I know how to write books. I’ve written several. I even wrote one when I had a newborn baby. (She slept in a laundry basket in my office while I wrote…)
If I decide I want to write a book, it’s not a huge stretch for me.
BUT, If I have a dream to write a New York Times bestseller and to appear on major media platforms, that is something I really can’t do with my own will. It’s way out of my wheelhouse and to create that I have to have a dream.
And faith – enough faith to span the gap between my dream and the manifestation of my dream into reality.
You can’t have faith if you don’t believe in sufficiency and support. You can’t jump over the gap if you’re clinging to the edge with fear.
It’s also hard to do the right thing, to act with compassion and to share when you don’t have faith that you’re going to be okay.
At the root of the challenges facing humanity and our ability to find elegant solutions to these challenges is a global crisis in faith.
When we think we are lacking, when we perceive resources as scarce, when we don’t have faith that things can work out, we protect and defend our fixed position. We hold on, hoard and fight for what we think is ours. We take from others not realizing that our own connection to Source IS the source of our sufficiency.
Let’s get real here for a minute.
If you are reading this post, you’re on a computer. You’ve got electricity. You can read. You probably have access to food. You’ve studied metaphysics. You probably saw or at least heard of the movie, The Secret, and you understand the concept of deliberate creation.
You know that vibrations create, your thoughts influence your experience of reality and you know how to use your consciousness to create what you want in life.
But, if you’re honest, you’re probably not fully using everything you know. You let your energy get hijacked. You may be angry or despairing about the condition of the world and the current political leadership. You let your old stories run your life or you sometimes use them as excuses to explain why everything feels hard.
This might be creating a whole domino effect in your life right now. You stress eat or drink more wine that you think you should. You binge watch Netflix and drag your laptop or phone every where with you and “plug” in instead of being present to yourself or to the world. You forget to meditate, take care of yourself and your body. You procrastinate, avoid or do the bare minimum and then feel badly that you’re not doing what you need to do…
You might object to reading this. It might trigger you. But it’s probably true.
I will be honest and tell you that this is certainly true for me. In the past few years when things have not looked like I expected them to, I’ve allowed my own stories and, frankly, my own creative sloppiness, to stop me from applying my creative power the way I know how to.
I’ve settled for the compromise of the least. I’ve let myself fall back on using my sheer effort to create instead of my faith and I’ve been doing a mighty fierce tango with burnout as a consequence.
This is the biggest “gap” that I need to “span”, the gap between what I know to do and actually doing it.
If we don’t put pedal to the metal and get committed to our creative capacity, if we fail to use our faith to build beyond our sheer will and hold a vision of possibility for the world that transcends what our logical conditioning tells us is true, if we fail to fulfill the potential of our faith and stop ourselves from dreaming a better, more equitable, sustainable abundant world into form, the path to our cosmic evolution will be bumpy…
In other words, if you want to build a world of equitable, sustainable peace, you have to commit to dreaming it into existence. Unwaveringly. With focus. Without compromise. With devotion.
Dreaming won’t be the only step. But it is the first, most vital step. Our dreams crack open the doorway to potentiating the quantum field and beginning the process of manifesting.
Dream first with faith. Then take the right actions. Do the right work. Let serendipity and magic reveal the next right step.
And if nothing seems to be happening, keep the faith.
This is my mantra for myself this year. Span the gap.
I am grateful for the next journey around the sun. I am grateful for all of you and for sharing this beautiful day on this amazing planet with You!
From my Heart to Yours,