Quantum Human Design Evolution Report 10-20-2020

​Mercury Retrograde and Sun Transits Gate 50 – Gate of Nurturing

I hope this Update finds you learning how to align with the magical unfolding and un-learning of the need to “hustle”.

I believe that sometimes we have to be completely at a loss and broken down for true magic to happen – for us to “un-learn” the mind game of hustle. Sometimes the Universe needs us to be completely open and devoid of expectation in order to sneak in an expansive breakthrough in the final hour…

Surrender is the gateway to demonstrations of faith.

I learned the importance of surrender one night in a hammock while sitting under an incredible star-filled sky in Sedona, Arizona. I had moved to Sedona with my family to study Human Design. We lived there a few years and it was pretty rough. My marriage was falling apart. We were struggling financially. There were very few resources for children. Trying to raise a family of four young kids and hold true to my spiritual beliefs was indescribably stressful.

We blew through the money we had made from the sale of our house in Texas and were down to just $400. Our rent was due in two days and we needed to somehow create $1000 just to get by.

I literally had NO CLUE what to do. I didn’t have a job. My business wasn’t really bringing in any money. I didn’t know where to go or how to pull a financial “rabbit” out of a hat.

I tucked the kids in that night and went outside to lie in the hammock. There are light pollution laws in Sedona and the inky night sky is just effervescent with stars. As I shifted my perspective and appreciated the expansiveness of the cosmos, I made a very subtle but vital inner shift. Something in me just surrendered the “problems” I was facing.

In reality, there wasn’t really anything else I could do but surrender. My brain was at an utter standstill and I had no more energy to try to “figure out” my way through the challenge I was facing.

There was such peace in simply being in the moment under the stars. In that moment I just completely let go of the problem and basically let my faith in some kind of a resolution take command of the whole situation.

The next day I got a job offer to work at the Sedona Center for the New Age – as a psychic (That’s another story for another day!). Within 24 hours of working at the Center for the New Age I made our rent, grocery money and the rent for my new office.

It NEVER would of occurred to me to go get a job as a psychic. Never. Ever. Never.

But it ended up being one of the most interesting, rewarding and expansive jobs I’ve ever had. I wouldn’t be doing what I do today without that experience.

I’m thinking about that moment because I am still in awe of the grace of that night under the stars. It was as if the Universe had to completely break me down to crack me open to receive.

I feel like we are all collectively going through a similar experience. 2020 is breaking us down and cracking us open to receive the instructions for the next right step. We are being prepared to walk into the most unexpected circumstances only to discover that what is in front of us is exactly what we need to lay the foundation for our future.

We are heading towards the breaking point. (Some of you may already feel like you’re there…) This point we are moving towards is not really “breaking” us but cracking us open, setting the stage for a breakthrough and showing us what is truly precious and valuable and worth fighting for – worth enduring and committing to.

Stay strong. And surrender. Alignment is much more powerful than hustle. Alignment is sustainable, resilient and creative. When we live in alignment with our Hearts, the next right steps for ourselves and for the fulfillment of our purpose reveal themselves.

Here’s to an expansive, aligned and peaceful week!

From my Heart to Yours,

We’ve got two big things to explore this week. I want to start first with a brief overview of the Mercury Retrograde Cycle that we’re in and then we’ll look at the Sun and the Earth themes of the week.

Retrograde cycles encourage us to go inward to explore the themes that the planets give us. We currently have five planets in retrograde which can make momentum feel sticky and kind of like we’re “all revved up with no where to go”. The current Mars Retrograde mixed with Uranus, Neptune, Pluto and now Mercury, is amplifying the sense that we’re building up energy but with no where to put it. We’re all a little tense, easy to provoke and impatient.

(Insert gentle reminder to take deep breaths before responding here…)

Mercury added their delightful potential for confusion to the mix going retrograde last Wednesday, October 14, lasting until November 3, following the United States election. (The last time when Mercury was retrograde during a United States election was when Al Gore won the popular vote and George Bush still won the election.). We’re already seeing that there are potential glitches in the technology and the clarity around the voting process in the U.S. I don’t really expect the potential for confusion and tension to get any better and I would not be surprised if we have a long road to sorting out the election results ahead.

Mercury, in its retrograde station, “back tracks” through the Gate 44, the Gate of Truth, the Gate 28, the Gate of Challenge, the Gate 50, the Gate of Nurturing and the Gate 32, the Gate of Endurance.

We are looking at the patterns of the past, clarifying what is truly valuable and worth taking a stand for, making sure that our actions are in alignment with our values and what we value and biding our time until the timing is right to bring it all into alignment. We are assessing our own value and sense of what is valuable, making sure that we are walking our talk.

As always, a Mercury Retrograde cycle can make technology unpredictable (Last night my iPhone spontaneously called 911 all by itself from the other side of the room!!), making communication unclear and causing the people from our past to show up again – either in real life or in our minds.

Pandemics always start with the Sun in the Gate 44.4, the Gate of Truth. We are coming up on the celestial “birthday” of COVID-19 on November 2 and with Mercury starting it’s retrograde cycle in the Gate 44.4, we’re really taking stock of the changes – especially the changes in our values – that the Coronavirus has brought us. We’re looking at the struggle we’ve been through, the economic challenges ahead and we’re starting to rethink our approach and what we need to do to take care of ourselves. And each other.

I always encourage people to look at the current celestial weather but to also look at what lies beyond. We are certainly in a planetary “storm” for the next few months. I fully expect us to be challenged, to feel the need to hunker down, batten down the hatches and find the strength and courage to endure what’s ahead.

My parents, who are in their 80’s, keep saying that this situation we’re in is temporary and that one day it will be a part of our past. They’ve been alive long enough to know that storms eventually blow over. The real work starts when you pick up the debris and assess how to start anew.

I want to encourage you to remember that what lies ahead for us is a cycle of massive reformation, renewal and rebirth. This will pass. We will get through this. We will emerge with more loving, more enduring, more aligned and more sustainable values in place.

Take some time this week and imagine what our lives are going to look like after the storm. How are we going to unite people? What gifts will we be sharing with the world? What do we need to do to create a strong foundation of sustainability, equitability, justice and enduring peace? These are truly the most important contemplations and imaginings for us to embark on right now. Use the darkness and stillness of this time to contract inward and prepare for what’s next.

The Sun this week transits the Gate 50, the Gate of Nurturing. The Earth transits the Gate 3, the Gate of Innovation.

The Gate 50 brings us the energy to share what we have and who we are with others. In it’s shadow expression the Gate 50 can sometimes be co-dependent causing us “over-care”. Guilt can be potentially a major player this week, stopping you from sustaining yourself.

The Gate 50 is also an energy that dictates our values. In the shadow we may tend to hold on to rigid principles and fail to be flexible and compassionate with our assessment of the choices of others. Be gentle with each other and yourself.

We are mastering the ability to nurture ourselves so that we have more to give others. We’ll have the intuition this week to know what others need to bring them into greater alignment with Love and to increase the wellbeing of others, but to do this in a balanced way. It’s a good idea to make sure you’re letting others be responsible for themselves this week as the urge to take over may be high,

This energy is also about food and cooking. I suspect that on a collective level we’re going to be tackling the question of how we’re going to feed and care for everyone while we face the possibility of another big surge in COVID rates globally.

With the Earth in the Gate 3, the Gate of Innovation, we are grounded in our ability to embrace and integrate new ideas and new ways of doing things. We’re learning to stay in appreciation for unique ways of thinking and being and trusting that, as innovators on the leading edge of consciousness, our time to transmit what we’re here to bring forth will come, so we wait and cultivate our ideas with patience. We can’t push against Divine Timing, even though we feel this deep sense of urgency.

As hokey as this sounds, gratitude for all that we have and have been given is essential to align with (and influence!) Divine Timing. If you’re feeling impatient, take stock of what you have and practice being grateful. Gratitude opens the floodgates to innovation and also aligns us with the ease of right timing.

As usual, take good care of yourselves this week. This is a super intense time and we’re all feeling the wear and tear and the pressure. Keep moving forward. Keep your eyes turned towards possibilities and the loving exploration of the reformation and rebirth ahead.

This too shall pass.