HOW LONG DO YOU HAVE TO WAIT? AS LONG AS IT TAKES.
I hope this post finds you enjoying the sacred spirals of time that remind you that you are a part of a cosmic unfolding that is breath-taking and awesome.
It’s porch season at my house. I have a magical screened in porch. The very first time I walked into my house before I moved in, I was instantly beckoned by the porch. She is a vessel for sacred time in our house. It is on our porch that we transcend linear time and drop into that sweet place where we just “be” together as a family.
I live in Minnesota so the time to be able to sit outside without dying – literally – is short. As soon as it’s warm enough to go outside without a parka, I prepare the porch, sweeping and scrubbing away the dirt from the winter, hanging the cute Parisian curtain LED lights and putting out the pillows and plants to make our little sanctuary a colorful haven.
This year’s porch season promises to be a good one. The lockdown from the pandemic has made me seriously evaluate my time and how I use it. For almost my entire career, I’ve taught classes at night, a pattern I evolved as a result of being a full-time single parent. I’d finish up with dinner and get the kids settled and then hop on a teleclass. This rhythm of night time teaching created time in the afternoons for driving kids, cooking dinner and being available for homework.
In recent years, as my business has grown, I’ve continued teaching at night. In the past year, I’ve literally taught every evening during the week and often on weekend evenings too. I love my work and, if left to my own devices, I’d probably be teaching 24/7 for 365 days a year. I feel extraordinarily blessed to be called to do the work that I do.
It’s also caused me to miss countless bedtime reading hours with my 12-year-old, evening conversations with my husband and even just having a little time for myself to read or contemplate life.
While in the short run, these evening routines seem malleable and expendable, I’m old enough to know that I can’t get those evenings back and in the blink of an eye, the budding young woman who lives with us, will be launching into her own life and I’ll be left with more than enough time to fill – and a certain emptiness that I’m not looking forward to.
So I’ve put a pause on evening classes. These past few weeks have been the first time I’ve had evenings free for years. The pressure of rushing through dinner time is gone and left me with extra hours to “be” on the porch.
We don’t have TV and we don’t watch things on the internet. We have a deliberately media-free household. I believe that this has added a different experience of time for my family. We regularly spend hours together on the porch talking, sharing and hanging out. Last night my husband read old journal entries from a bike trip that he took across Europe by himself forty years ago. It was fun to watch my daughter absorb the details of her father’s adventure and I was blown away by the wisdom of his observations and contemplations.
Our evenings on our porch help me bend time. The more I’m in the flow of time and truly present, the more time I experience. These comic pauses in the day calibrate my rhythm and bring me into a greater alignment with the flow of life. The renewal and restoration that I experience when I can push back my dinner plate and simply listen to my family – or friends who we have the honor to host on the porch – without the pressure of having to be somewhere else or get something else done (the curse of an Open Root Center) actually makes me more productive, more creative and more connected to the bigger meaning of my life than when I’m running around checking things off my to-do list.
This past week I got to spend time with my 18-month-old grandson. Grand-parenting is a very different experience of time and timing. Seeing the world through my grandson’s eyes is probably the best reminder of cosmic time. When my own children were this young, I didn’t have the perspective to understand why presence is paramount. I was too worried, too rushed and too caught up in all the ways my mothering was a reflection of my value.
With my grandson, I can just sit and watch baby ducklings. For an hour. Literally. And it’s magical.
Time is all we have. Time is essential for renewal and for living a sustainable life. So many times when people learn about Human Design and they discover that waiting is essential for them to receive aligned opportunities, they panic. One of the most common questions people ask me is how long do they have to wait.
As long as it takes.
As long as it takes for you to renew yourself, truly see the value of who you are and to value yourself enough to know that you are here for a reason, that you are a once in a lifetime Cosmic event and that you have a unique, vital role in the evolution of humanity and an irreplaceable place in Divine Order.
Understanding this is going to take as long as it takes. We can’t distract ourselves away from the process. We must drop into it. Absorb it. Be in it so that we can synch up with Cosmic time and timing.
I’ll end my ramble this week with a quotation from Christine Walters Painter from her book, Sacred Time:
“Seasons such as winter call for hibernation and rest, moving into darkness and mystery. Yet we are bombarded with a ubiquitous call to shop endlessly and to socialize as much as possible, while lights are strung everywhere to stave off the nigh. This now begins as early as late summer, and at least by Halloween. Rather than trying to keep the brightness of summer through the year, I suggest that we look at time as a spiral – through the lens of each breath’s rise and fall, the rhythms of the sun and moon, and the longer cycles of a lifetime, generations and the universe itself.”
Starting this week, in honor of time – and frankly in honor of my Team (Kristin, Cindy, Betsy and Jamie) who work crazy long hours to hold up the fortress of support that we strive to create for you each week – we will be closing our offices on Saturday and Sunday. If you plan on watching replays or classes over the weekend, please log in on Friday afternoon to be sure that all technology works so that we can help you in a timely manner.
Here’s to a restorative and nourishing week! (Take some time to savor the full moon and maybe even catch a glimpse of the eclipse!)
From my Heart to Yours,